last night i dreamt that my brother Cy hated me.
he told me all the things i fear he thinks about me. he told me how he used to love me. he told me how disappointed he was in me. he told me he wished i wasn't his sister. i told him i thought he should be proud of me. he said he'd lost all faith in me.
all my worst fears about why he cares less and never calls were realized in my dream. i never knew how abandoned i felt really until i woke up this morning. even if he does love me less, he will always be my hero.